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okay, wow. just realized there's like 3 days left of 2005, and then it's HAPPY NEW YEARS ! alrighttt.. well reading back on previous entries, yes. i do that. LOL man.. so much have changed.. frum like january.. to now  almost everything's changed. me, personally  HAHA god. i could see how unhappy i was since like january - june .. that problem wouldn't go away. it's actually still here, but im like numb from it . doesn't hurt anymore =) yeah. that girl and that guy was there for me SO ITS O K A Y i guess. i remember how i used to cry at night cause i was so like frusterated, and held onto so much anger.. and GRRS everything was just so fuked cus of that person(s). o well, you win some you lose some right ! mm hmm. march was square dancing month.. remember my first partner kitty? HEHE ... oh yes, my written diary had one of the most heartfelt entries dated feb 22nd or sumthing . that's when i couldn't take it anymore. i was gonna SHOW HER. and SHOW HIM those fcken fckers! ROFL btw, im not done showing you. but then again, maybe ill let karma come and bit ur no-ass, ass. anyways.. during late 2nd term, and 3rd term, school became stress. mclennan's many projects.. oh god. horrible. and english class was horrible!! and of course, math was just KILLING me... thought i understood it then bam bam bam. zeros, fails, incompletes = 51% and an interm "karmen is bright student, but...." WTF! && just cause i was late, she locks me out. never gonna get over that. MmM guess the hard work paid off or sumthing? 83% on final OKAY =). mm then summer....was mostly ups i guess. lols pretty good "well used" summer.. cali, summerschool, the rcm exam! and those days at the park =) yeah, those 2 months did me good. just couldn't take grade 9 anymore.. whatever...so start of a new school year. GRADE 10 oh my! learned if you LET IT GO, it helps. a lot. no more mopey days. hmm past few months... more ups than downs i guess. except for that one week but yeah. things will get better, no matter what happens. OPTIMISM ^^ aalright im tired. good night.
excerpt from some book i was reading in march.
"When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn.
When you're over the old boyfriends, crushes and girlfriends and you realize you can live without them, you learn.
You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go.
You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares about you is better than a hundred friends that don't.
You learn that you can be strong, and take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go ahead and experience life"
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i said i would change my xanga user every year cause of...some reason! HAHA but yeah. haven't MADE the actual usernameeeee thoough. hmms...whatever. 
and like 3/4 of war of the worlds....... i still don't get it. didn't really eat cause i was full again. =S ...i ate like 3 pieces of potatoes? then dododo... watched the last epidsodes of that .. show LOLS inono whats its called but everywun seemed so EXCITEDDDD lols and INTOOO IT.. yup. well. 
bad stummy day. 
shiettt lols..man i left the room, she walks in and.......